After having my children, I often fell guilty when I step out without them. As much as I preach the importance of having a balanced life, I feel like I should be home with them especially when they see me leave and they cry. When I finally muster the strength to go out, I find myself thinking of them while I am out. I even vow not to bring them up but somehow, I would be asked about them and out came the photos. When did I get here?
Once upon a time, I was a partying 20 something who binge drank during the week, fell asleep in an awkward positions, and still made it to work or class on time. Now the highlight of my days are finger painting, car karaoke to Disney hits, and priding myself of being able to name the Paw Patrol team members.
What inspired this impromptu post you might ask? Tonight, I had the opportunity of adorning myself in a beautiful satin evergreen ensemble with matching glam makeup with soft blonde beach waves and I felt sexy. I met my girls at a bar downtown and had the chance to unwind, laugh, catch up, and even took shots of casa migos twice! As I got up to find the restroom, I felt my legs wobble as the alcohol started to hit me. I waited in the line for restroom and it was almost a nostalgic feeling. I reminisced on the countless drunken nights when I stumbled to someone’s restroom after having the time of my life.
I started thinking, should we stop living once we have children? Do you feel guilty when you go out without them? Is this just me or is this a shared experience?
I miss going out and sometimes even the carefree person I once was. And now that I have my beautiful boys, I enjoy going to museums, playgrounds, indoor jungle gyms, and everything dinosaurs. But every now and then, I want to be outside. How about you?
Mommy Guilt 
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